strive for improvement not perfection

So today was a very busy day for me. I was baby sitting two little rugrats who were completely wild all day so coming home from cardio I was very tired. Not surprising to me at all my energy level made a complete 360 when I got to the grocery store to buy my food for the week. I was doing so good UNTIL  I passed a box of those sugar cookies that are with out a doubt made from clouds of heaven and a little bit of angel dust sprinkles. I walked on and tried to stay focused on my clean grocery list but the compulsive thoughts continued. I didn't NEED the cookies but I WANTED so desperately to eat a damn cookie. Why not have just one do you ask? The answer is simple really, when my thoughts about these cookies erupted I instantly felt fatter. I could feel my thighs rubbing together and my double chin growing. I felt disgusting. And that's why I cant have just one. I already feel so guilty about the simple thought of unhealthy foods that it drives me into a binge. So as you guessed, I bought the damn cookies -_- BUT here is where I improved. I bought one box of 8 sugar cookies, not a box of sugar cookies, a box of donuts, a frozen pizza, a pint of ben and jerrys, a bag of popcorn, and 6 candy bars like I wanted to. I didn't scarf down the cookies and make room for other things, I ate them slowly and enjoyed each bite of heaven. Since my binge was so small my purge was as well, but I don't want to scare myself, or any of you for that matter, into thinking its an easy thing, to taste calories and waste them away guilt free. Because it's not. It takes a toll on your body. I've noticed some trouble swallowing lately so I definitely need to lay off before that becomes a serious problem. But today Improvement was made, and that is always something to be celebrated! Not with more food of course ( I wish... I love food ) but with the peace of mind that I am on the right track, and maybe some sun salutations :^) xoxo always SOYG